Let me live [Quick Transmigration]

Chapter 194 Round X.3

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Capture wild animals and put them in cages, throw food and drinking water, some animals will start to eat after they can’t bear the hunger, and then gradually adapt to the life in the cage, while some will always curl up in the corner of the cage and stay still. Not eating, just slowly starving to death like this, and even violently rushing around until the bones are broken.And according to Lu You's previous personality, he should belong to the former type - Qi Zhengyun really thought so at first.

He has basically recovered the memories of the previous worlds, except for a few that were forgotten due to too long a time, or were irreparably lost due to the impact during the process of crossing the barrier.Qi Zhengyun remembered that in the world of vampires, he did similar things: during the time when the besieged vampires counterattacked and retaliated extremely fiercely, at his request, Lu You stayed in St. In the house protected by the spell, he does not take a step outside; except for him who gets along day and night, he only communicates with the outside world through remote means such as telephone and video communication, and the communication partners are limited to the teacher Hester and his sister Lorna.

At that time, Lu You adapted well to such a monotonous and closed life.He is a character who can tolerate loneliness and quietness more than busyness and excitement.Compared with what Qi Zhengyun is doing at this time, the superficial form and the purpose of protection are the same, the difference is that what drives him at that time is the selfish desire to possess what he wants to completely belong to himself, just like the The precious jewels were carefully put into the box; now he is a gambler who seems to be out of control, tightly holding the chips in his hands... The chips themselves are worthless, just waiting to be exchanged at the end of the game go out.And it made no difference to him whether he ended up holding one or the other.

This is what he said to himself...

He has not forgotten the end of that world, the ashes swallowed by the waves, the tears falling into the cold sea water, and the excruciating pain of splitting himself in two, repeatedly reminding him that even if it seems feasible, this is not the right path after all.But the pain became blurred in the memory, as if too many injuries had paralyzed the nerves.So he didn't care about repeating the same mistakes - all he needed was to extend the time on the way as much as possible - besides, without the help of the system this time, Lu You could no longer escape in that way.

It's just... After the actual practice, it was different from what he imagined.He found that in his plan, he had forgotten to consider the most important point, that is, Lu You's feelings for him.

Lu You's tolerance and patience, his willingness to stay behind closed doors for a long time, and to live quietly in one place are actually prerequisites.It was because he had known him at that time, and because even if it was not love, it was already close to love, that Lu You let him lock the cage door and stayed by his side without resistance.If it were a stranger who didn't want to hurt him, but didn't want to give him affection, he would be more willing to take the risk of being hurt, struggling to return to freedom, and would not be as easy as expected. yield.

Hui Hui guessed right before leaving.It was indeed a first for a room like this with no windows, minimal furniture, and even a locked bathroom door.In the last time, the room prepared by Qi Zhengyun still had windows, although it was a room that could not be opened by welding and was closed by railings outside; in the last time, there were desks, wall clocks, and game consoles for passing time in the room. The door is not locked; further forward, there is not even such a narrow and cramped room at first, but the entire apartment with a larger range of activities...

Qi Zhengyun can't stay by Lu You's side all the time, he needs to leave, go hunting far away from the cage, and devour those monsters that are bound to become enemies in advance; all he can do is to take protective measures in advance, and when he finds out Any omissions will be made up for next time - from the beginning, those things that would cause danger are not provided, just in such a simple and rude way.

To make Lu You trust him and accept asylum willingly instead of trying to escape all the time, he has to open his heart again, this heart that is still bleeding from the wound—in exchange for this trust.Lu You seems to have a natural sensitivity to this. No matter how well the lies and false appearances are disguised, it is difficult to deceive him. It must be the real thing.

But he couldn't bear to go through that heartbreak again.

So, he made himself more and more ruthless——

If the threat of actively inflicting a small amount of damage will get the caged prey to settle out of fear, so be it.If, after blocking all avenues of escape, the choice in frustration is acceptance rather than self-destruction, that is an acceptable outcome.

What's more troublesome is that sometimes he himself is soft-hearted—feeling reluctant and unable to continue to be tough, and because of distress, he wants to give up coercion and turn to appeasement...but after several times of even more sad results caused by this, he also This softness can be killed in time before it is manifested in action.

Qi Zhengyun closed his eyes, his power rippled out like water waves, feeding back any slight movement in the room across the wall.Lu You sat on the edge of the bed for a while, stood up, walked aimlessly in the room, and sat down on the chair in the middle of the room after a while; after a few minutes, stood up again a little irritably, raised his head He came to stare at the bright white light on the roof, and then walked slowly back to the edge of the bed after a while.After repeating this several times, he leaned against the edge of the bed and sat on the ground beside the bed, still hugging the pillow in his arms, and closed his eyes as if feeling tired.

Qi Zhengyun knew that he was not asleep.He listened to the sound of Lu You's breathing and heartbeat, and felt that life was also pulsating in his chest.At this time, he has to convince himself again that the person in the room at this moment is not "his" Lu You, but just a kind of container-like existence of this life. The traces are irrelevant-"consumables" do not need to have a complete soul, they are just bubbles that repeatedly appear and disappear during reincarnation.

- Such a choice should be correct.This choice must be correct.If not, how could things go so smoothly?Before several reincarnations, the main threat began to shift from "monsters" to "accidents", because the dangerous monsters in this city, and even some dangerous monsters that were farther away, have been defeated and deprived by him. Existence, only a small amount of dregs remained in his body.These fragments overlap each other, like a layer of ingrown scales, which he has been used to coexist with the original power.

Last time, the monster did not appear at all.As planned, he actually created a clean zone, if only briefly.Since then, the enemies he has to face have become the world's malice towards the mark of death, and Lu You himself who is unwilling to cooperate - and the former will weaken rapidly over time, that is to say, he can almost devote all his energy to Concentrate on dealing with the latter.

And humans are powerless to resist in front of monsters——

He really never felt the kind of heart-breaking pain again.Instead, there is a kind of quiet that seems to mean ominous, and the chest seems to be becoming hollow day after day, as if the hourglass above is slowly emptying the sand in it.The pain was swallowed by this silence, just like he devoured those competitors who tried to get his prey, but this silence did not feel satisfied after a full meal, and continued to swallow more things...

Unknowingly, Qi Zhengyun stood in front of the wall in a daze for a long time.During the constant repetition, the sense of time passing seems to be gradually blunted for him.Everything he did was for the final reunion, but that anxious longing seems to have faded now.He didn't think about what that meant - maybe he had a hunch it would be a terrible answer.If it hadn't been for the movement of the shadow by the window as the sun set, reminding him of the time, he would have almost missed the two hours agreed upon before.

When I suddenly came back to my senses, it felt like I woke up from a long dream.Just like the dream still had a clear impression in his mind when he just woke up, Qi Zhengyun also remembered what he was thinking when he was in a daze just now.He thought: Now that the threat of monsters has been eliminated...

Then what?Continuing from this idea, what kind of inferences will be drawn?After achieving such results, is it possible to relax a little bit — to indulge a little bit, to allow oneself the thoughts of closeness?A certain kind of fiery emotion that was burning in his heart, because it was deliberately suppressed for a long time and lacked fuel, dimmed in the chronic suffocation, now seems to be about to be extinguished.

but……

It cannot be done halfway.Another extremely indifferent voice said so.

Qi Zhengyun restrained his mind.This time, the skillful move seems to be more difficult than usual.He sensed the situation of the person in the next room again: Lu You curled up his legs and leaned against the edge of the bed in an awkward position. This time he was indeed asleep, but his sleep was light, and he might wake up at any time.

The man turned around, his figure and the way he moved, like a weightless black shadow, quietly left the place.

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Lu You suddenly woke up from his light sleep.

He seemed to have had an extremely depressing nightmare, and when he woke up, he couldn't remember anything except the dullness.His shoulders were pressed against a certain hard material, and his neck and waist felt sore and painful. Lu You panted slightly, and subconsciously groped around to find support, but touched a warm object with a soft touch .

He retracted his hand like lightning, and opened his eyes at the same time.Memories from before falling asleep came flooding back. In a dim field of vision, he could barely make out the extraordinarily dark silhouette nearby. Lu You immediately wanted to back away, but his hands were resting on the floor and he could not move. The cold touch entangled him again.

"If you step back any further, you'll hit the edge of the bed." The same man's voice from before rang out within reach.

The deep and slightly hoarse voice, speaking slowly, should have been lazy and sexy in the imagination, not to mention the purpose of caring, but the tone at this moment is only indifferent.The room was dark, Lu You's first reaction was that it was dark, and after remembering that there was no window in this room, he realized that the man should have turned off the light when he came in.He felt the restraint on his wrist gradually loosen to prevent him from hurting himself. This time, it seemed that he didn't intend to keep him trapped. When the metal-like touch was about to slip off completely, Lu You didn't know where he came from. With courage, he grabbed it with his backhand.

The sliding of the "rope" stopped moving.Lu You's movement was a little slower, or it could be said that it was just in time, and he grabbed the most end position.Some rough touches pricked his palms - completely different from the fibers of hemp rope, but like stroking the scales of fish or snakes upside down.

Lu You froze all over.It's so stiff that I forget that I should let go quickly.After experiencing the same period of stagnation, the thing he was pinching moved in his palm, and the part that had slipped away just now reversed and wrapped around his wrist gently again——Lu You began to slightly Trembling, like a robot with rusted joints, he let go of his fingers little by little-but the thing was still clinging to him.

He smelled a slight smell of water - this had been permeating the room before he woke up from the chair, but he was used to it and ignored it, because the previous two hours of blankness were too close to this moment Finally, the distance can be distinguished.

——A cold and terrifying breath that does not belong to humans.

Lu You's hands froze in their original positions, but his body curled up, as if he wanted to hide under the bed.There was a faint sound in his throat, not yet a scream, but enough to express fear.After a few more seconds, he began to try to withdraw his hand. The monster hidden in the darkness didn't make things difficult for him, and let go of his hand graciously.

There was silence.

After a long time, Lu You gently sucked his nose.He deliberately held his breath for a while just now, trying to hear the sound of another person's breathing, but he couldn't hear anything.He began to realize that compared to being kidnapped by "a delusional psychopath", what he encountered seemed to be more bizarre...

Accompanied by some small rustling sounds, the person who was probably half-kneeling beside him—judging from the height of the sound source—stands up.The room was not completely dark, probably because there was a little light coming in through the crack of the door. In the field of vision that gradually adapted to the darkness and could distinguish the silhouette more clearly, Lu You saw a tall figure outside the outline of the human figure. , but still connected to something else... When the figure stretched out his hand to him, and then felt a warm touch on his cheek, fear made him whimper softly as if hurt.

That hand didn't hurt him, it just used the edge of its nails to slowly scratch across the intact skin below the small scar that had no feeling on his face, as if trying to figure out how to cut him apart. "Does it hurt?" the monster asked in a low voice.His voice sounded more sad than soft.

Lu You turned his face away slightly, as if he was just trying to avoid it, or he didn't make a complete negative shaking of his head.

"Don't be so afraid, I won't eat you," said the monster. "Even if you try to escape, I won't do anything other than stop you."

He raised his hand, stroked Lu You's hair, and smoothed the place that was a little raised when he fell asleep just now, as if smoothing the fur of a kitten's playful and messy fur. "However, if you are obedient and behave well," he added, "I will consider meeting some of your requests—do you want to change to a room with a window?"

Another moment of silence.

"...Can you let me go?" Lu You asked in a low voice, with a nasal tone.The figure bending down in front of him waiting for a response did not speak to the request, but Lu You felt him shake his head.So Lu You stopped talking.

Silence signifies silent resistance.After a while, the hand on his hair left, accompanied by a soft sigh, and two words like talking to himself: "Forget it..."

The figure stood up straight, as if giving up the plan to continue communicating, turned around and walked out.Something dragged across the ground, making a rustling sound like a snake swimming.Lu You didn't move, and heard the sound of the door being opened and closed; a few minutes later, the two sounds were repeated again, but the interval was a little longer, and there was an extra sound like something being placed on the ground.

Lu You smelled the aroma of food.He got up from the floor beside the bed, groped to the wall, and turned on the overhead light.The light stimulated him to squint his eyes, and he blinked a few times before he got used to it, and saw the tray on the ground by the door.Lu You stood there for a while, and finally walked over slowly - at the moment when his mood gradually calmed down, there was already a trace of regret in his heart.

The answer just now was really irrational...

Why knowingly ask impossible questions?He should have shown a willingness to cooperate, so that...that "person" would relax his vigilance, and if the environment could be changed, there would be more opportunities to escape.But because of his panic, fear, and momentary anger, he missed the opportunity in vain.

I don't know if there is any room for redemption?

My stomach felt like it was stuffed with stones, and I didn't feel hungry at all.But Lu You decided to "behave better" in order to seek a turnaround in the future - he thought he would feel some kind of humiliation, but his heart was calmer than he thought.The factor in his character that made him used to patience, as if he was used to muddling along, made him accept the reality as quickly as possible at this moment and calm down.

Lu You even thought about what to do next time he comes into contact with that "person".It's best to find a way to see his face... The last time he was blindfolded, this time he turned off the lights, and both times he only heard voices.Is it to hide some abnormalities on the outside and refuse to be seen by others, or is it for the purpose of establishing authority?In any case, this could be a breakthrough...

——I thought it was a good idea, but unfortunately the reality refused to go as I thought.Because it didn't take long for the "breakthrough" that Lu You thought was not the case: when the man came to take back the tray, Lu You saw his face undisguisedly—same as Lu You judged from his voice , is a completely strange appearance.There are no flaws, or distinct "inhuman" traits, and it can even be said to be quite handsome-although the aura is very oppressive, the expression is not fierce.

But Lu You also saw the thing he had acted rashly and touched before... It should be said to be one of the "those" things.

Seen with my own eyes, sticking out of the shadows...

Guessing and witnessing have completely different impacts.After the man left again, Lu You huddled in a corner and did a lot of psychological construction before he mustered up the courage and decided to start the next step of exploration.

He almost moved to the door, raised his hand and hesitated for a while before making up his mind and carefully knocking on the door.